Excessive

Here I am again watching Arrow, randomly picking up my dogs bone whenever she drops it, and attempting to write agian. Today was a stressful day, but well, kinda. Not really. I don't even know. I kind of remember it as okay, but it was busy. It felt stressful, and at the end of the day, as usual, I was asked to do a bunch of work within a small amount of time and it kinda drives up the stress and anxiety.

Arrow is a really bad show. Not like Two and A Half Men bad, but like, really bad. I've watched four seasons now, every episode, and I hate almost every character. I think the writing is terrible, the dialogue makes me cringe, and almost everything in it is laughable. I still watch it for some reason, maybe just out of commitment. 

Bekki and I went to go see Deadpool today, and it was worth the money and the trip. I was going to just wait until Deadpool was available outside theatres to see it. I had liked Deadpool comics when I was younger, but was never a collector. After hearing quite a few people talk about how great it was, I decided to spontaneously order tickets and go see it today.

I go back and forth between feeling anxious and feeling confident at work. Maybe I feel confident all the time, it's hard to say. I feel very confident in my abilities to do anything set for me to do. It's just sometimes what I'm supposed to do isn't clear, and then that's what I get anxious about.

Today was our first ultrasound appointment, and it was pretty mind blowing.

Alright so you're supposed to go for your first ultrasound between 11 weeks and 13 weeks. Our estimation of how far along Bekki was, was 10 weeks or so, but the Doctor said we were 11 weeks. We went, and of course, they told us we're only at 10 weeks, and are not able to do the tests and measurements neccessary, and will have to go back. So on the surface, that sounds like it would be a depressing or upsetting situation, but I got to see my baby!

Although a bit more restless than I like, today turned out to be a fairly relaxing day. Sure, I couldn't sit still and my knee kept shaking and shaking, but I played a lot of Diablo 3, watched a lot of TV, made a bunch of Banana Chocolate Chip muffins, and generally did nothing stressful.

Today was a pretty good day. Although I woke up with a headache, over the course of the day I accomplished quite a bit and felt good about it. I suffered through an above average exaustion. My eyes were so heavy and I had to force myself to do anything because I had no energy.

It was an above average lazy day today, and I think I'm okay with it. I woke up pretty early, around 6:30am. I remember waking up, going the bathroom, going back to bed, laying there for a bit quite tired... The dog jumped up and slept beside me, and I kept tossing and turning. I'm not sure how much time went by, but at some point, even though I was feeling quite tired, I decided I should just get up. The idea of breakfast and reading reddit and playing Diablo 3 outweighed the idea of staying in bed. For the most part, any time laying in bed is discomfort. I never feel good, or rested or comfortable. I get pains in my neck and back, almost always get a headache, so getting up is rarely a difficult thing, it's usually much more desirable.

It was a long day today. Slow traffic, bad weather, grocery shopping, it seemed to never end. I didn't get home until after the sun was down, it was probably around 6:30pm or something. I didn't really look at the clock to be honest. For dinner, we had Raviloi and garlic bread, some red fox, and a cupcake. It was very good, and it felt good to sit down after such a long day.

I started watching Star Wars Rebels a little bit after seeing the Force Awakens, because I had discovered that there was a Star Wars TV show and that sounded like a pretty awesome thing. I wasn't sure if it would be good or not, but it was produced by Disney, so I figured it couldn't have been too bad.