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Bekki got her appendix out, out of no where. Our baby was at risk. Everything went okay, but now she needs a month off work to recover.

I'll write about it sometime.

I found out a week or so ago that we're having a boy! Finding out the sex of your unborn child is a real mix of emotions. It plays with your expectations and picture of the future, and just makes it all seem much more real.

I finished Fallout 4! Okay, well, I finished one of the main story lines. There are four ways to complete the story, three of which are almost all the same, just with a few details switched around, and one that is unique. I finished with one of the three similar ways, siding with the Railroad, and getting a satisfying ending to the main story.

A little while ago I was convinced that I would never enjoy a game again. I remember being really worried that I had grown out of them, and then I just couldn't find fun in it anymore. I am very happy to report that I am having a huge amount of fun playing games lately.

I don't know why I thought this show was interesting, it's so overdramatic and not interesting, and so staged, it's hard to watch. The show makes me uncomfortable in a way that other shows can't. 

Was it a coincidence that I sat and played various Playstation 4 games quite a bit both Saturday and Today, and both days I had to take a migraine pill? No, I don't think it's too far fetched to say that it could be related to staring at the screen, my posture while I sit, or some mix of those types of things. I enjoyed the time playing games, but I don't really enjoy how I feel physically at the moment. On top of the headaches, I am also always so unbelievably tired that I yawn and can barely enjoy or pay attention to a game while I'm playing it. All these issues combined, I still managed to play more than my fair share of games this weekend, and these are some of my initial impressions.

So we got a Playstation 4, or at least... I got a Playstation 4. I say we because there really is no I as far as possession goes, but it was I who wanted one for sure, but we both agreed that it'd be fine to get. That's what tax returns are for right? Giving up mmo's (WoW, FFXIV), has lead me to play way fewer games than before. I have recently been playing some PC games, Saint's Row, XCom... which lead me to want to play console games, or at least made me miss the days when I could get lost in a console game and worry less about stuff. Those feelings led me to want a PS4, since I figured the experiences would be more relevant and up to date, and that was exciting.

Another really busy day, which went okay. Some slight physical symptoms that seemed to get worse near the end of the day.

I've been really considering buying a PS4 and I'm pretty excited about it but I can't quite pull the trigger on it. I just always feel bad whenever I spend money. I'd be pretty fun to play some games though.

I think I'm going through a small mental breakdown, a mental hicup. My heart never stops pounding, I feel super anxious and I feel down for no reason. I can't help but think these are symptoms of withdrawl or change in medication. I feel like garbage and I feel sad, lonely, isolated, just, not.. normal. I don't feel good.

Today was the worst. I felt so stressed out, and I didn't enjoy a single second of the day. I'm watching Legends of Tomorrow, a terrible show that makes me embarrased to have read comic books.