Excessive

Why is it that whenever I go to bed now, I lay awake and think horrible things that make me cry and unsleepy? Why is it that for the last few days, I've laid in the dark and thought about what it was like to be alone in that hospital? or how it felt to have my heart ripped out. or the looks on faces, the sounds in the voices...

Due to a severe error in my script, error logs were being created too frequently, and due to this error, my monthly bandwidth is almost used up (thankfully it's already the 25th). Although I've fixed the error (to the best of my knoweldge), it may be too late to save the site, so you may find yourself staring at a "user has exceeded their monthly bandwidth usage" and you won't be able to read my beautiful site! Probably the most annoying thing about the whole thing is that I get about three or four emails a day telling me my bandwidth has gone over 80%! OH NO!! I just needed one god damn email thank you very much, not an entire mailbox full.

I'm going to start with the recolection of watching the great movie Elf. Yes, that's right, GREAT. I knew I was going to enjoy it right off the bat, before I even watched the movie... before I even downloaded it... I suppose that's why I decided to download it in the first place. Probably the biggest reason why I did decide to download it was because I kept seeing the commericals on TV because Christmas is getting closer, and the americans are, for some reason, pushing Christmas earlier than ever this year (it's not even their thanksgiving yet.. fucking weirdos), but anyway, I kept seeing commercials for it and I kept giggling and yelling WILL FERREL! Naturally, anything I giggle at, I want in my home, so after being mindlessly brainwashed by commercials, I went to the gosh darn computer and downloaded the movie. I enjoy, or have enjoyed rather, anything Will Ferrel has been in or been involved with (his writing credits in Night at the Roxbury and Anchorman) and so I new that I would at least eeennjoy the movie, if not love it, so I went into the movie ready to be amused. Thankfully the movie not only amused me, but it managed to turn my bad mood into a good mood, laughing at so many jokes, and a lot of physical comedy, something Will is genius with. It has it's share of 'corny, but not too corny' moments, hilarious jokes, lots of 'smile parts' and fun things... references to my childhood and so on. Basically, it was well acted (except for the kid... I didn't particularly care for his acting, not that it wasn't good.. I just didn't like the guy).. and it was a very nice, magical movie, worth enjoying, especially around this time of the year.

I'm wondering if there is a law against muttering threats against someone online, in written form. I know there are things to do with verbal harrasment and threats, but I'm not sure about online, since rogers is registered with .com, and .com is american.. hehe annnnyway. There is this girl, not woman, girl, named.. hmmm, let's change names for privacy sake. A girl named Sharon (for example) is a giant cunt, whom deserves not only to be shot through the face, but also repeatedly boot fucked; over and over. I hate her. I want to kill her with spoons. Good thing her real name isn't Sharon though. It's not.

Today was pretty short.. for some reason, someone took some hours out of it and it only lasted a few, rather than the full amount. I wonder where they went... I woke up early; I couldn't sleep last night, and I woke up every hour or so, eventually waking up at 8:30am or so, and the curtain was open in our room, and the sun was shining in on my face, which was nice, but it also confused the hell out of it because it was only 8:30am and it looked like it was 12 or something because of how bright it was. Where was I? Hmm... anyway, I got out of bed, barely awake, and made a pot of coffee, drank coffee, almost fell asleep on the couch and then stumbled back to bed. I don't remember how long I slept for... or when I got back up, or what I did really when I got up.

I was bathing; a refreshing bathing. I seem to do that a lot more recently... mmm, insence, lots of warm water, bath pillow and bubble bath.. *sigh* it's my heaven! I love to sit back and just enjoy the heat and comfort.. mmmm, it's quite possibly the most relaxing thing in the world. On a related note, yesterday I built an old table (the one I used to use for my computer) and when I finally got it up (in the kitchen) I guess I rubbed my leg against it by accident, and I felt a pain quickly, and I checked shortly after and I guess it was a small sliver, so I pulled it out and that was that, but later on in the day, when I showed Emily my battle scar, she asked me why it was swollen, and I said, probably because it's a fucking battle scar. I got in the bath and looked at it, touched it, and quickly realize that I had a two inch piece of wood lodged under my skin, with both ends sealed and no way to get it out. If I pinch the skin, I can see it attempting to poke through each side of the skin... picture a piercing needle trying to go through skin.. *aaggh* It's painful and I can't figure out how to get it out.. but anyway, that's one of the reasons I took my bath tonight, to try to soften up the skin for it to come out easier, but nope, it hurts way to much to even touch. I hope I can figure out what to do soon, or maybe it will solve itself.. I hope. *worries*

With money going to be flowing in shortly, I've had a few specific things on my mind lately, which bring me lots of smiles and tinglyness! When I start getting steady paycheques and have a lot of extra spending money, I want to start buying/collecting games again! I've thought of a few games I want to add to my collection: